Sunday, June 13, 2010

Someone in my life

Always feel something special everytime I think about her..She aint just a sunshine in my life she is my dream...Her voice recordings bring life into me...Gone are the days when I used to feel alone, now even when I go for a walk 'physically alone' I carry a big smile on my face, thinking she is always by my side...Every walk to remember :)...All of a sudden feels so grown up... having a deep understanding of every relation, of every feeling...

i know m not good enough for her but noone in this world is... I wish the tradition of swayamvar still existed, this princess for sure would have been mine... Every morning I get up thinking about her, kiss her pic, text her something and then get up from my bed. I sleep thinking how great it would have been had we both been together. Half the day is spent talking about her and smiling in her awe...Unfortunately the way I feel for her, she doesnt feel for me. GOD isnt that very great as people think he is... Sometimes I feel I would have done a better job sitting atop there...Blithe and spice would have prevailed at the same time with a perfect balance of the two... I just missed the GODship entrance exam by 0.5marks!! aaarrghh!! regret being 10mins late for the exam!! would have for sure nailed it otherwise :(

All my life I was content with the money I was going to get being a computer engineer but now I want to become rich, very rich, just to provide her every comfort she ever wished for..Regretting why I dint go for Marine engineering like my brother. Still have the option of becoming an entrepreneur and making it big but by the time I break-even she will have her kids calling me mama-mama!!!

Feel like doing a few good Hindi movies with her, having lots and lotsa romantic songs, keeping aflame the blaze of our love n blah blah kinda dialogues... too many intimate scenes, pillow fights, long walks holding hands, dancing in the rains, sitting together in some class for studying and 'nihar'ing each other at times, flooding each others mail boxes with love letters, sleeping on her lap, gliding my fingers through her hair, having coffee from the same mug, looking into her eyes for ages, sleeping with eyes open, a smile on the face and each others pics in hand, twinkling at the monitor, laughing at the cellphone, many forehead kisses, I wish I could be hers and she could be mine...forever, till the world exists...next birth even if I come as a tree I would want to stand next to her...

Though I am not the one who will abnegate so easily but I have fought hard against my own.. Now guess its time I relinquish the control of my heart to the divine powers...

At sixes and sevens about what is gonna happen with our relation. I hope wish dream pray she ends up in my arms...


3 comments:

  1. beautiful... don worry she will :)

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  2. Its ok dude..! if she's meant to be yours then ul have her soon..! otherwise koi aur mil jaaegi..koi ni koi ni!

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